Keeping It Real

I'm losing it.  I have been completely wrapped up in this grief the last week.  I've been told I'm a good faker.  However, I'm not sure that is a compliment.  I have no other different words to say about how I feel.  It's just hard.  Everything about my life is hard now that it is all surrounded with this grief.  I would do anything to change our circumstances.  Anything.