Tomorrow I begin "Writing My Grief" in a course with Megan Devine from Refuge in Grief.
I stumbled across Megan in the midst of a storm. It had been a long few weeks where I was lost and tired and depressed. I was a functioning depressed person if that even exists or makes sense. It has been over a year since I lost Charlie, since I watched him take his last breath in my arms, and everyone else has moved on. I felt like I was living in a mirthless, miserable cloud but with a reason; I lost Charlie.
As I have felt all the different emotions just about starting this writing course I realized all of it is because I have so many emotions bottled up inside me about Charlie. I am hoping tomorrow when I am able to meet this online community through our writing I will be able to get out some of the things the world cannot bear to hear any longer. I am hoping this will be an outlet. I am hoping I find support, enough to carry this grief and this sorrow as I keep going.